Neck pain persists.
I am getting used to my sleep apnea machine, but it's not easy. I keep having to tape my mouth shut so that I don't get dry mouth. I can't find the right tape. I am thinking of getting a full face mask, but I am sleeping better and feel more rested in the morning
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Went shopping with my girlfriend (hubby) last week. I had a good time buying clothes (my most favorite thing to do) at Ross's. Took 3/4 of a Xanax a little more than I usually do. I really felt relaxed and in the normal mood.
Since I have dropped a lot of my symptoms, a new thing I have noticed is that I am more out going and friendly. I now view people as if I am one of them and not different. We moved about a year ago and last Sat. we went to a party at our old neighborhood. It was really enjoyable. There was no dizzy feelings, no panic, no anxiety. I took my usual 1/2 of a .05 Xanax before I went
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Also had a couple over on Tues. friends from over 40 years ago. We talked and went to a restaurant for lunch same thing very comfortable and don't really think about having agoraphobia anymore. I am seeing myself as not being agoraphobic rather as having agoraphobia.
This afternoon we are going to a neighborhood block party with neighbor's we have never met before. We just moved here a year ago. Will let you know how that goes.
But my biggie, going out and driving somewhere didn't happen. MY excuse for this is always the same the Forex. As I told you it is a 24 hour market and I am always involved in it. But since my new strategy I have more free time. I need to get a different mind set. I have been trading the market for 5 years now so I have to change some of the things I do. It's hard to make yourself do things you feel uncomfortable doing. Remember life should not be uncomfortable. Sometimes in certain situations it has to be but don't make this the norm. It's not like I really have to drive to be able to live. You know how I totally disagree with retraining your brain to do things that you will never be able to do. (Read my story)
I hope you all have by now read some of my postings and have been to the eye doctor or at least checked it out on the net.
I belong to a group on the net called MD Junction. The people that post on there are the nicest people! I have tried to tell them my story but no one is buying it. Except 1 person. She is getting the help she needs with prism glasses. Waiting on results. The postings on there are so sad and funny I go between crying and laughing.
That's all for this week will talk to you again next week. Remember it's all in your eyes.
Yolanda
