Friday, April 14, 2017

WHAT I WISH I HAD KNOWN FROM THE BEGINNING

 I am
 78 and what I wish I had know from the beginning is that Love is the answer. Love and acceptance of each other and my fellow man. It’s not about me it’s about you. Acceptance of your right to be anything you want to be without judgement from me or anyone else. I might not like it or even want to be around it but it is your journey and you should have a right to go on it if that is what you want. After having said all that I realize that not many of us know what love is so that would be a starting point if you would like to take that journey. I started with the 13th chapter of 1 Corinthians, I printed it out , framed it and put it on my desk. Everyday I read it and try to really understand it. Love is not laying down and letting someone walk all over you, that’s more like hate. It doesn’t ask for the truth but is happy when it hears it. Love is more of a hoping everything goes well not an insisting that it goes that way. Love is not telling everyone how rich and wonderful I am, it’s more about how wonderful you are. Love is not trying to be the first in line it’s more about who should be the first in line and moving back so someone else who need it more should be there. Love is waiting patiently while you see the way your are going is wrong not insisting you go a different way. Love means you get angry but it take a lot before that happens. To sum up Love it is like sitting in the back seat and liking it and not having to ride shotgun.

Saturday, March 4, 2017

THOUGHT PROVOKING QUESTIONS

Hi everyone, I hope by now you have downloaded my kindle ( My Life After Agoraphobia, What Now?)  and are on your way to the life you never thought you could have. Remember if you need help ask!

Today I want to share with you some thought provoking questions. I enjoyed these questions and thought you would too.

1. If one thing could change in your life what would it be?
2. What thought does your mind keep coming back to?
3. What was the day you were most proud of yourself?
4. If you could buy anything what would you buy?
5. If you could ask God a question what would that question be?
6. Is there one person you are dependent upon for your happiness?
7. If money was never going to be a problem how wold your life change?
8. Do you think God sees everything?
9. Do you think people should all look alike
so there would be no racism?
10. Do you feel guilty about the things you do?
11.Do you love yourself?
12. Who is the most important person in your life?
13. Do you feel your are unlovable?
14. What would make you truly happy?
15. Do you think you go to heaven when you die?
16. Is God watching you only when your in the church?
17. What do you think defines success?
18. Are you afraid of being alone?
19. Do you think it's important to believe in God?
20. What one thing would you change about society?
21. If you could change laws, which one would you change?
22.Do you think only good people go to heaven?
23. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
24. If you lived to be 80 what would matter to you the most?
25. What one thing about your personality do you love the most?
26. What do you think the reason is for being here?
27. What is something that you would hate to go without for a day?
28. Do you think the Bible is the absolute word of God?
29. Do you think you should forgive someone even though they haven't asked for it?

Love you all, Yolanda




Thursday, January 19, 2017

MY LIFE AFTER AGORAPHOBIA, WHAT NOW? YOLANDA ANTONINO

It's finally out. My second book that I had no clue I was going to write is finally out. I am going to give you a bit of what it's about. The kindle version will be out soon.


This easy-to-read guide for those seeking to overcome agoraphobia follows up on My Silent Disability, in which Yolanda Antonino described her trials as a wife and mother who could not leave her house without suffering crippling attacks of panic. Here, the author advances the theory that the root cause of agoraphobia—the fear of crowds or of open spaces—is actually a condition called Heterophoria or Binocular Vision Dysfunction (BVD) which, in the author’s words, occurs when “one eye sees higher or lower than the other eye.” This condition can be treated with eyeglasses fitted with prisms.
To help others bypass years of ineffective treatment, the author includes a test with which readers can self-determine if they suffer from Heterophoria. She also provides a directory of the few doctors in the country who are able to treat this condition. Antonino then provides guidance related to the expectations for and use of prism glasses.
Antonino offers a message of hope to all those afflicted by the crippling fear of leaving the house and the physical symptoms that accompany this condition. Sufferers of migraines, traumatic brain injuries, or epilepsy could also find a light at the end of the tunnel.

Saturday, January 7, 2017

AGORAPHOBIA AND BVD. IS THIS YOU?

Binocular Vision Correction for the Treatment of Vestibular Symptoms

Posted by Cynthia Ryan
A subtle vision misalignment, when identified with a thorough medical history and treated with aligning lenses, may reduce symptoms for some vestibular patients.

BINOCULAR VISION DYSFUNCTION AND VERTICAL HETEROPHORIA: A BRIEF HISTORY

Binocular vision dysfunction (BVD) encompasses a group of conditions where the two eyes have difficulty working together as a team, resulting in a vertical or horizontal (or both) misalignment between the line of sight of one eye with the other eye. When the amount of misalignment is large (strabismus or heterotropia) double vision or diplopia results. When the amount of misalignment is subtle (heterophoria), single or fused imagery is maintained, but at the cost of overusing the vision alignment mechanisms, resulting in medical symptoms instead of diplopia.
As defined above, vertical heterophoria (VH) is a subset of BVD. Recently published research theorized that VH is occurring due to a lack of coordination between the two main vertical eye alignment mechanisms, the vision (or oculomotor) system and the balance (or vestibular) system, and that the initial problem is a faulty vertical alignment signal from the vestibular system.1,2 If left unchecked, this would precipitate vertical double vision, which would be poorly tolerated. The oculomotor system appears to be identifying the misalignment and correcting it. These repetitive cycles of misalignment / realignment appear to lead to an overuse of the eye alignment muscles, which can result in the symptoms of VH. These include dizziness, headaches, anxiety, neck pain and difficulty with balance and coordination.3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11
The body may also try to correct VH (i.e. to realign the images) by tilting the head, which can cause neck pain.

CAUSES

The two main causes of VH are brain injury (e.g. TBI/concussion, stroke), and congenital causes. Both causes can occur at any age.

WHY IS VH NOT BEING DIAGNOSED?

Although VH was first described in the 19th century12, the medical community has made little progress in identifying and treating this condition, most likely because the standard vision alignment tests are not sensitive enough  to find these subtle misalignments1,2,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20

THE DIAGNOSIS AND TREATMENT OF VH

The first step is to take a thorough medical history. VH has a very broad set of symptoms, many of which are not commonly appreciated by the medical community to be associated with a vision problem.

Symptoms

  • Pain symptoms: headache, face ache/sinus pain, eye pain or pain with eye movements
  • Head tilt symptoms: neck ache and upper back pain due to a head tilt
  • Dizziness / Vestibular symptoms: dizziness, lightheadedness, off-balance feeling, motion sickness, nausea, poor depth perception, lack of coordination, unsteadiness or drifting to one side, disorientation
  • Reading symptoms: difficulty with concentration, fatigue with reading, difficulty with reading comprehension, skipping lines, using a line guide (e.g. finger) to maintain one’s place, words running together, losing one’s place
  • Routine visual symptoms: blurred vision, difficulty with close-up vision, difficulty with night vision, eye strain, sore eyes
  • Binocular vision symptoms: double or overlapping vision, shadowed vision, light sensitivity, difficulty with glare or reflection, closing one eye while reading
  • Psychological symptoms: feeling overwhelmed or anxious in a crowd, agoraphobia, feeling overwhelmed or anxious in large spaces (e.g. a mall)
To aid in obtaining a detailed history and to screen for those who might have VH, a validated questionnaire (Binocular Vision Dysfunction Questionnaire or BVDQ)  can be used that includes questions from all of the major symptom groups and asks the patient to assess the frequency of their symptoms. A score of >/= 15 appears to be suggestive of VH.

PHYSICAL FINDINGS

There are physical findings associated with VH, including the presence of a head tilt (Figure 1), a unilateral furrowed brow, an asymmetrical face (Figure 2), pulling to one side when walking, unsteady gait, and discomfort when observing a finger approaching your nose (convergence testing). 
 

Establishing the diagnosis

Once a patient has been identified by their symptoms and/or physical findings as someone who may have VH, a complete ocular and vision exam is performed. Near sightedness, farsightedness and astigmatism must be identified and corrected prior to assessing the patient’s binocular vision status. Traditionally the next step in the assessment of VH involves the use of vertical alignment measurements such as vertical vergence, Von Graefe phoria testing at near and at far, cover test and red lens test. However, as previously mentioned, these tests are not sensitive enough to identify the subtle misalignments of VH1,2,13-20. To address this deficiency, an alternative technique for identifying the subtle vertical misalignment was developed. Named Prism Challenge, the technique consists of the incremental addition of small units of neutralizing vertical prism (usually 0.25D) to a trial frame containing the patient’s refractive prescription. The subtle vertical misalignment is identified (and the diagnosis of VH is established) when the patient, wearing the correct aligning (or prism) lenses for 10-20 minutes, experiences a marked reduction or even elimination of their VH symptoms. 

Progressive Relaxation

In patients with VH, the eye alignment muscles are tense and over-worked and cannot relax quickly enough to allow the patient to wear the full amount of realigning prism immediately. Therefore, the first prescription contains less than the full amount of needed prism, and is worn for approximately 2-4 weeks. This allows the eye alignment muscles to experience Progressive Relaxation, after which the patient will be able to accept the full amount of prism needed (which is incorporated into their second set of lenses). 
Once treatment is completed (in about two visits), patients experience significant improvement, averaging an 80% reduction in symptoms.
Since VH is often not identified, many patients suffer for years without the proper diagnosis and treatment.  Some patients may be told that their symptoms are due to migraines, atypical Meniere’s, psychogenic dizziness, anxiety and panic disorders, ADD/ADHD, as well as other conditions. Treatment for these conditions typically yields inadequate relief of symptoms. 

CASE STUDY

Sarah, a mechanical engineer, was injured in a car accident in which she suffered a traumatic brain injury (TBI). One year into her recovery she continued to experience a myriad of symptoms, including dizziness, headache, nausea, neck pain, eye strain, fatigue, and anxiety. She found it difficult to walk and drive and also had trouble focusing, reading, and writing. She received traditional treatment provided to patients with TBI but her symptoms did not improve.
By the time Sarah was referred for a specialized binocular vision evaluation (NeuroVisual evaluation) she was two years into her recovery and had been through speech therapy, occupational therapy, physical therapy, and vision therapy. Unfortunately, these treatments gave her only marginal relief from her symptoms. Sarah’s NeuroVisual evaluation revealed that she had a subtle vision misalignment (VH). She was prescribed aligning eyeglass lenses, and in a matter of minutes her symptoms were markedly reduced. Within one week her occupational therapist and neuropsychologist noted significant improvement. At the completion of treatment (8 weeks) her symptoms were reduced by 80% and she was able to live her life more fully, participating in many activities she wasn’t able to prior to wearing aligning lenses. 

RESEARCH

Dr. Debby Feinberg and her research team have been researching VH since 1995, with the discovery that certain patients with dizziness actually had VH as the cause, and that treatment with aligning lenses immediately and markedly reduced symptoms.22 It was then discovered that some TBI patients with persistent post-concussive symptoms had VH and responded to aligning lenses with a 70-80% reduction of symptoms.23,24,25,26,27 It was also found that VH plays a role in certain patients with headache and anxiety.28,29 A case series of 126 patients with VH was presented at the semiannual Barany Society meeting May, 2016 in Seoul, S. Korea.30

SUMMARY

  • Subtle vision misalignment can be congenital / spontaneous or precipitated by a brain injury / concussion, and has many non-visual symptoms including dizziness and other vestibular symptoms, headache, neck ache, anxiety, and difficulty reading. 
  • Head tilt during normal upright posture and difficulty with gait and balance are common physical signs. 
  • Current vision tests are not sensitive enough to find these subtle misalignments. 
  • People have suffered for years and have been incorrectly diagnosed with many other conditions, with the resulting treatment for those conditions providing only minimal relief. 
  • The diagnosis of VH is confirmed when the patient experiences immediate and marked reduction of symptoms with aligning eyeglass lenses.
  • The average patient experiences an 80% reduction of symptoms by the end of treatment.
  • The Binocular Vision Dysfunction Questionnaire (BVDQ) is a validated tool for identifying those who might have subtle vision misalignment.

The Authors

Dr. Debby Feinberg, owner of Vision Specialists of Michigan and Director of Clinical Care, Vision Specialists Institute, has been performing pioneering work with binocular vision dysfunction (BVD) and vertical heterophoria (VH). Her research has been presented locally, nationally and internationally, and published in peer reviewed journals. She is the author of a book about VH patients and their experiences with subtle vision misalignment and treatment with aligning lenses. She is Co-Director of the NeuroVisual Medicine Training Program, designed to train others to diagnose and treat subtle vision misalignment. She helped develop the Binocular Vision Dysfunction Questionnaire (BVDQ) that identifies patients that most likely have BVD and VH.
Dr. Mark Rosner is Director of Education and Research at Vision Specialists Institute, and a board certified Emergency Physician with more than 30 years of clinical experience. He has been actively involved in binocular vision dysfunction (BVD) and vertical heterophoria (VH) research since 2005, which has been presented locally, nationally and internationally, and published in peer reviewed journals. He helped develop the Binocular Vision Dysfunction Questionnaire (BVDQ) that identifies patients that most likely have BVD and VH. He is the co-author (with Dr. Feinberg) of “If The Walls of My Exam Room Could Talk,” a book about VH patients and their experiences with subtle vision misalignment and treatment with aligning lenses. He is Co-Director of the NeuroVisual Medicine Training Program, designed to train others to diagnose and treat subtle vision misalignmen

Saturday, December 31, 2016

In the top picture the eye is looking down it is not in alignment with the star.
In the second picture the eye muscles strain to correct the misalignment, after much struggle it now aligns with the star. Most people can depend on their eye muscles to correct this problem to a certain extant but eventually the muscles get tired and start to give out. It usually take a traumatic event to totally give out. As we get older and stress starts to take over we start to have symptoms. Some babies have symptoms out of the womb. They are unhappy and no one knows why. Some have it happen in early child hood. I was 28 years old with two children when mine hit. I have other symptoms that but didn't pay much attention to them. Then sometimes it comes and goes. You seem to be doing fine may be for a year or so and then when some problem hits you start to feel dizzy, or anxious, or afraid and don't know why. This the eye muscle trying to regain alignment. It quivers and with that comes dizzyness. Eyes that are misaligned cause blurred or double vision.  The brain does not tolerate blurred or double vision, so it forces the eyes to look at the exact same spot, so that only one image is seen. This is accomplished by straining the eye muscles to make one eye look up a little more, and the other eye to look down a little more. As the muscles strain, they become fatigued and jittery, and can no longer keep the eyes in the correct alignment. This "bouncing" in and out of alignment creates the feeling of dizziness, lightheadedness, vertigo and a sense of imbalance.
What happenes to you when all of this starts happening? You retreat when the fight or flight response takes over. YOU ARE UNDER ATTACK! The threat to your survival is real. Can you understand now why you can't come out of the bedroom? It's like the soldier in the trenches, he is not leaving the trench until the all clear is called. The problem is this, there is never an all clear for the agoraphobic their always under attack. Sometimes all symptoms go away for a while only to come back with a vengence when a stressful time in your life happens. The older you get the harder it is for the muscles to keep the eyes aligned.
By now I'm sure you have a few questions like, what, how did this happen to me? Does this happen to everyone? The medical community has adopted an "all in the family" attitude towards many disability's and diseases and this is one of them. Some  have diabetes, cancer, autism, deformities the list goes on. So you might have had an Aunt Genevieve or an Uncle Joe that had something strange with them. Some cases of this condition may be caused by head trauma, stroke, or neurological disorders.  Maybe some who have had some symptoms of  agoraphobia have had a  car accident or fell and this put them in full force agoraphobia. The eye muscles get jarred and become misaligned. In my family we have Diabetes and Heterophoria. More women than men have this condition, I am not sure why.
 Are you starting to understand now why you get overwhelmed or anxious in crowds or with driving? Some people have face pain, eye pain, TMJ problems, neck ache and upper  back pain due to a head tilt. The head tilt is the body's way of trying to align the eyes. Look at pictures of yourself and see if your head is tilted to the side. I realize that a lot of us tilt our head in a picture but not in every one and not to the severe angle you will see. My head was so tilted it was almost flat. You might get motion sickness, nausea, poor depth perception, unsteadiness while walking or drifting to one side while walking. Lack of coordination similar to those seen in patients with MS, or stroke, and inner ear disorder or Meniere's Disease. Maybe you have reading symptoms such as difficulty with reading and comprehension, skipping lines while reading, losing one's place while reading, words running together while reading, similar to those seen with a learning disbility.You might have blurred vision, double or overlapping vision, shadowed vision, light sensitivity, difficulty with glare or reflection. Psychological symptoms such as feeling overwhelmed or anxious when in large contained spaces like malls or big box stores like WalMart. Feeling overwhelmed or anxious in crowds or with driving. Who knew! Thanks to the internet this information is available to everyone. The internet is God's gift to mankind. That is where I went when all else failed.