HOW DID IT START!

Everyone has a story of how and when their agoraphobia started. Most of us know down to the very day and hour with all the other details. How could you not remember the start of the worse day of your life. What is your story? Do you want to share if so I'll listen. Maybe other people would like to hear your story also. It's unique to you but maybe it will help someone else. After we have our worse period and come down with agoraphobia we start the blame game. Who is responsible for this! We blame ourselves then we head down into our child hood. We love to go there, after-all that is where most of the experts go. Maybe it was an abusive childhood, maybe we lost our parent, maybe we were abandoned or left alone or denied the list goes on and on. We spend our lives trying to get over real or imagined problems in our youth that led to this disaster. We never once think it could be a psychical problem. Maybe we were born this way! What! Then how come I didn't have this all my life? Because for the first part of your life, life was good. Then as life went on things happened to put a strain on life. Maybe a failed marriage, or a trauma of some sort, or the loss of a loved one. In my cast the straw that broke the camel's back was the death of my father in law. I wasn't even close to him. I only knew him for about 5 years. I was just 28 years old but it was enough to cause the end of my world. Then the suffering started for 40 years, yes 40 years. I was a half full kind of person all my life. Even though I lost my mother and father before the age of 6 I was just born with the need to find out things. To me everything has an answer, you just have to find it. But 40 years of suffering almost threw me over the edge. How I kept my self esteem through all that I don't know. How I even kept my mind is a mystery. I had a husband that stuck by me. I stuck by him because he was all I had. Any way that is all in the past and for the last 7 plus years life is good again. My searching for an answer has paid off and the rest of my life can be free of debilitating symptoms. For more of my story read "My Story" on the right. The best to all of you.