TEA AND ME

Happy Saturday,

Have to update you on my invitation to tea. I did drive there even after my husband asked three times if I wanted him to drive me. The trip was without incident except for the pre anxiety. We had been shopping and running errands all day and had went out to dinner. So I was pretty tired at 7pm when I left. We started shopping at 12 noon. 

When I got there there was not just the usual group of friends but they added  new person. 

Before I left the house I brought  one of my books to give to one of the regular girls who did not have a copy. I had already given one to the other two friends about  1 year ago. Now these two friends have never said a word about my book. They never said they read it, they never said they liked it, they never said it was the worst piece of junk they had ever read. WHAT! By this time I really wondered  if they are friends at all. I still brought a book and signed it. Well guess what happened then? I saw there was a new girl that I had never met before and I said to myself "NO WAY" I already felt like I was in hostile territory with the first girls I gave it to. 

But because I have been telling you all not to be ashamed of  your agoraphobia but bring people into the awareness of it. Because of the bumper sticker I put on my car I should have done what I told you all to do. 

I can't believe I was such a chicken. The crazy part was the new girl was so nice and friendly and we really hit it off. And to make matters worse the girl who had the tea, had a whole table of books she asked us to look through and take any we wanted. I really blew it! 

I am going to forgive myself and love myself anyway. I am going to think of myself as a human being that is a work in progress. And I promise you I will give that book to the friend I know and also the friend I just met.

Keep tuned.

Also please take the hyperphoria test on the left.

The very best to you talk to you soon.  

Yolanda

MY BUMPER STICKER

Here's the pictures of my Agoraphobia Awareness bumper sticker. Not really what I expected. It's more of a window sticker. I was really expecting a magnetic bumper sticker. I think it's back to the drawing board for me. I want to start talking and quit being ashamed of what I have.


Make sure you take the hyperphoria test

by clicking on the left.

Talk to you all later. Yolanda

TEA, ME AND MY CAR

I have accepted an invitation to tea on Fri. night about 7is. Now here is my delima. My husband has been retired for about 20 years, we go everywhere together. Even though my symptoms are really gone and I have been desensitized enough to hit the world with people in it I still get anxiety about striking out on my own. For so many years there wasn't even such a thought. If I had no one to go with I didn't go. But now with my symptom free life my mind still tells me I can't do it without a lot of distress. I still haven't figured a way to shut him down. My husband has even offered to drive me to the tea. But as a self professed symptom free agoraphobic I can't allow that. My plan is to get into the car I rarely drive and go. Wish me luck. I do plan on having a 1/2 of a 0.5 mg xanax. The drive will be about 3 miles. How much trouble can I get into in that short distance?

Remember if you haven't done so already take the Hyperphoria test on the left. And leave me a comment about anything. I love hearing from you.

Yolanda

MY SON AND HIS WIFE

Hi everyone,
Thought I would tell you the story of my son and his wife. My son has always had trouble in school and with life in general. The only book he ever read through was my book. He has a hard time keeping a job and drinks and does recreational drugs. Because Hyperphoria is in our family I always wondered if that is what the problem is with him. So I talked him into going to see Dr. Debbie. Since then he has been opening up more and more about his problems. His biggest is anxiety. I certainly can identify with that.

His wife also has many many problems and is on a lot of medication. While talking to her one day I noticed that one eye was definitely higher than the other. So I also talked her into going to see Dr. Debbie. Their appointment will be the first part of April. I am more nervous about it than them. It is about a six hour ride from here and I am just hoping they can make it. I know they will need more than one appointment but I am anxious to see how many diopters  off their eyes are. Say a little prayer that they will make it o.k..


Talk to you later.

Yolanda